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Called me Mia. Engaged with Mohd Ariff bin Md Isa. Our engagement on 30.1.2012.
I love reading books (twilight)! I can read it again and over again. My blog, my rules. It is up to me to post whatever here. Anything else? Find a reason to smile. And, happiness will always be with you.

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Monday, 24 September 2012

it's about this two months.

hye guys. :) yes, it's been 2 months since my last post over here. :( I'm sorry. I am very busy with my homework, assignment, and also my duty as a prefect. sometimes, it do, burdening me. :( in 2 weeks, I got final exam. please, wish me luck and pray for my best. :) I want the best for my study.

Talk about friends, Hanis already have a new friends. Izzati are not talk to me. :'( I don't know why. It's do torturing me. :( Atul, yes, we are being best friends now. Since I become close to Atul, I really not talk to Loo and Yip. :( I'm sorry babe. :( No matter what, I still love both of you. :* Widya, of course! being my BFF. we never argue. maybe because we really understand each other. we laugh, talk, eat, and even cry together. It's funny. :D she is my BFF. really do. :))

Ariff, a lot of things happened between us. Arguing? Don't ask how much it is. It's UNCOUNTABLE. yes, we do not understand each other. why? maybe, because I'm too expecting him to understand me. and, at the same time, I ignore him and his feelings. I'm sorry. :(

Awin, we already break up. being friend? of course not. I don't know why. Maybe it's too hurt to him. Maybe he love me too much and I'm disappointed him. I'm sorry. :'( It's really torturing me when he didn't want to talk to me, even, he never want to see my face again. Yes, he hate me. A LOT. He made me cry when he couple with Izzah and didn't tell me. At that time, I'm expecting we are friend. But, it's not. I don't know what the matter with him. Maybe I'm the one who can't understand his feelings. Then, they broke up. why? as for me, I think Awin want a better life for him. No girls that can make him sad anymore. maybe. who knows. he never tell anybody.

Mustaqim, he got a HUGE problem when Khalina didn't want to meet him. but, it's okay now. I'm glad for him. I want him to be very happy with Khalina. :)

by the way, I got new friend in my class. Aris Baginda. annoying? sometimes. but, he is kinda cute. he's funny. but, he didn't really talk to me. why? of course because of ariff.

amirul imran. my BFF that can't be forever. he's now just being my friend. not even best friend. why? he's keep blaming me for something that I didn't do. It's hurt me, very much. when my best friend didn't believe me. it's really torturing. and, I found that, he is very happy sitting at the back and surely, can always talk to Atiqah. I know who I am to you, brother. I'm just want we to be BFF. because, you are really understand me. I miss you. Miss our conversations. :( we do fasting together, right? thanks. you accompany me. A.I. you don't really know me right? I didn't want all this. I hate it. But, I don't know why, I can't stop it. I'm sorry. I already trying my best, talk to him, and want our relationship being better and not worse. and, now, I know that he's trying his best to this relationship. do believe me. I want to change him. I want the best for both of us. Then, maybe that's all happened for this two months. p/s: quite long post. :p

Labels: based on a true story, day, feelings, friends, memory

9/24/2012 06:47:00 pm

Saturday, 5 May 2012

they give me smiles.

well, night peeps. :)
then, how's your day?
amazing?
like me?

Thanks Allah. You gave me AWESOME LOVE from my family. You gave me a lot of SWEET MEMORY with my family. Every weekend, we will walk around SEREMBAN and watching movie. Thanks.
I could never imagine how my life would be without them. without my family. without arep. without widya, shazriq and all those Zul's gang.

They are amazing. Day by day, they make my life BRIGHTER. thanks.

When I arguing with Nazatul Amira, Hanis Idayu, Syuhada Adlin, Nurul Izzati.

There is. Mama, Widya, Ariff, Zul, Asyrani, Navin, Amirul Azman, Shazriq. They will stay by my side. Everytime I feel like can't bear it, they will give me a support.

Asy, I don't even expect that, someday, you will be very close with me. When I'm crying, Asyrani scold Navin and he says,"diam lah Navin!"
He didn't want those Navin's word make me upset.

Zul, you are the best among the best. Even it just a few months, we got close to each other, but, you helped me A LOT. when I'm crying, you will let me alone.
Cause you know that when I'm crying, that's mean I want to rest my mind.

Then, after that, you will ask me.
"Kau, kenapa tadi?"
You are damn much caring about me! Thanks!

Navin, you made A LOT OF JOKES. you made me HAPPY when I felt like ZERO.
you gave A LOT OF SMILES to me.

Amirul Azman, we got close since you read my diary. it is so embarrassing! you told me about your girl. SHEILA. ANA.
You did something that I felt like, 'you are my guardian at this school.' thanks.

You are the one, that knew everything about me and Ariff.
You knew when we arguing.
You knew when we were facing complicated moment.

Shazriq, my son! Alo, buchuk-2 mama!
Hahahaha, you always afraid when I got close to you.
hey, sweetheart, I'm your mom. I will NOT eat you!
You gave a lot of smiles to me.
You persuade me when I sulking.

You heard all of my problems.
You gave me your brilliant words.

You asked me whether I'm okay or not when I got a fever.
You are really caring. Thanks.

Widya, ILY.

Ariff, hey bunny. thanks. you give everything to me. you are the one. I would never find someone else. I just truly love you right now and will always love you in the future.
May our relationship last.
Just, would you give me a support like what had Zul gave?

Mama, you are my BEST MOM. you heard all of my problems. You heard everything about Ariff, Widya, Zul, Navin, Asyrani, Shazriq, Amirul Azman, Hanis, Nazatul, Izzati, Amirul Imran.
you heard EVERYTHING!!!!!!! THANKS! ILOVEYOU mama.

Labels: based on a true story, beauty, feelings, friends, introducing me, mumbling

5/05/2012 09:23:00 pm

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

Hanis Idayu. Daughter, BFF.

I miss three of us. Mia, Widya, Hanis.

it's already past. I know it. Sorry. :(

Widya, sorry for hurting you too much. ILY. just, sometimes, I love to bear everything by myself.

Hanis, I'm sorry cause I too jealous when you laughing with Syuhada, and not me. you hurt me too much. Everytime I heard your laugh, saw you smile with others, I will cry.

because, once upon a time, I am the one that made you laugh, smile, happy. We walk around the school together and NON-STOP. you let me cry at your shoulder when Mustaqim hurt me too much.
You support everything that I did.

Hanis, everytime I see your tears, dear. I want you to know that, it hurt me. Be strong honey. You got me here, darling. You can talk everything to me. I will be by your side. :)

Dear, remember, when there's nobody by your side, you still got this Mimi Atirah. Don't ever forget me. ILY. :*

Act, it's been a long time Allah showed me that you are not mine. You are belongs to them. They love you. They make you happy.

I want you to stay happy. Always.

Baby, don't cry anymore. I don't want you to be hurt.

Dear my youngest daughter, Hanis Idayu binti Azizan.
ILY. I don't want to lose you. But, it seems late now. You already forgot me. Maybe that would make you happy. :')

I will always remember our time together.

You are my BFF and my daughter. Forever will be. :)

Labels: feelings, lonely and alone

5/02/2012 09:30:00 pm

Monday, 12 March 2012

Mimi Farah's quote for her sister, Mimi Atirah.

this is my elder sister's quote.
She wrote all of this by herself.
ILY.

She wrote this when I felt very sad, disappointed and down, and she don't know why.
It is because of my AGAMA's marks actually.
I got B in it. I can't bear it anymore, I never imagine that I would got B in it. All of my effort all this long, seems nothing.

I'm not perfect.. And also..I can be classified into one of the 'BAD GIRLS alive'.. I dont know what had happened to you.. The thing I know is..no matter how sad you are..I believe ALLAH doesnt meant to hurt you..but..HE wants you to know how much HE loved you.. If you are being tested by HIM..remember..ALLAH actually wants to attract you to HIM.. HE wants to hear you praying and begging for HIS help.. Anyway..after all..who else can help when it comes to feelings probs..?? "Hanya dengan mengingati ALLAH hati akan menjadi tenang.." [Surah Ar-Rad:28] ;) if you need someone to talk..(even about AREP..I'm here to listen.. Btw..I miss you :( )

ILY much Mimi Jazman

Labels: challenge, feelings, lonely and alone, love, memory

3/12/2012 09:01:00 am

quote by myself.

the first post for today and the last post in Seremban today.
why?
Cause I will be back to my hometown, KEDAH.
And, I can't update my blog when I'm at my village.

Sorry.

By the way,
there's are no such simplicity in this regular life.
Be strong.
You could face it all.
Believe Allah will stay by your side and He will hear all your jeremiad.

:)

Labels: based on a true story, feelings, lonely and alone

3/12/2012 08:47:00 am

Saturday, 10 March 2012

I need time.

very boring. there's nobody accompany me right now. jyeah!

Ariff, hurm. We argue last Wednesday. I cry a lot because of that. Never thought that we will argue like this. It just like, both of us got a very high ego then there's nobody want to care about other feeling.

It hurts me too much.
Sorry bunny.
I love you no matter what but,
I can't forgive you.

It hurts me. I just can't let you ruin my happiness again and again.
Even, when you are not here, didn't stay by my side, I fell very alone. Then, that's make I can't smile like before. But, that's ignore by others feeling not hurt me as much what you do before. I'M SORRY.

I need time. To release my pain.

Labels: based on a true story, challenge, feelings, lonely and alone, love, memory

3/10/2012 07:40:00 pm

Friday, 17 February 2012

please. ILY.

Bunny, don't leave me.

I love you. I can't think about my past that got no YOU in it.

I just want a future that full with your name. ♥

And, this time, our love decorates by sweet memory. ♥

Labels: based on a true story, feelings, introducing me, love, memory

2/17/2012 04:48:00 pm

Thursday, 9 February 2012

this time.

Ariff, he mad at me. Ergh! For This Time Only Being, could you just stay cool and let the flow control you?! It is not just about me. It is about us.

If you don't love me anymore. just say it. Let me know. Let me end this relationship.

Labels: feelings, lonely and alone, love

2/09/2012 06:10:00 pm

Sunday, 29 January 2012

hate.

22/1/2012 is the last day I typed something in this beloved blog. ♥

okay. actually, I miss this blog. very much. oh, hunny bunny, you are my angel right now and always will be.

mood: desperate

why? what? how? when? where?

2 wife then 1 hubby then 2 wife more. (bad idea thought in my mind)

why
what
how
when
where

Labels: day, feelings

1/29/2012 07:36:00 pm

Sunday, 22 January 2012

problem. solve.

crying. Oh, I guess this year gonna be the worse in my life. I'm crying every time I feel like I can't think.

My problem were surely getting worse when I'm crying.
then, do I care?
I just want to release all of the bullshit pain in my heart.

And, I am very lucky cause when I cry. He, the one I most love, are always by my side. Thanks bunny.

Sometimes, I wonder, are there a moment when I don't have any problem? Everything just being very fine and alright. Everyday, I just get up from my bed and just face the day without any problem. Without any tear, without any pain, without any hate.

Edward Anthony Marie Cullen

Labels: feelings

1/22/2012 11:42:00 pm

CNY'S TEARS

Lovely CNY accompany by tears. interesting isn't?

thanks. every time I feel like I am the most happy teenage girl in the world, and in just a blink of eye, you make me feel worse in the universe.

And, sometimes, you make me feel regret being born in this world. my life will just completely ruin your happiness isn't?

Labels: anger, based on a true story, challenge, feelings, lonely and alone

1/22/2012 10:53:00 pm

Saturday, 7 January 2012

Ra-One.

hoho, watching Ra-One and the Chamma Challo song, oh oh. It is very amazing. btw, before this I didn't realized that, Era also played this song sometimes.

Labels: feelings, nonsense and ridiculous, shows, song

1/07/2012 12:32:00 pm

Friday, 6 January 2012

conclusion for all those past days.

new year, 2012.
new class, 2A.

got no new friends. grr, amenda lah boring sangad tahun ni?

I got some new teachers. ouch, it is very hard learning with other teacher when we are already comfort with someone else.

the class kinda silent although there are no teacher in the class.

boring oh. tak ada langsung joke sana sini untuk gelak-gelak sambil siapkan homework.

Labels: feelings, nonsense and ridiculous

1/06/2012 07:31:00 pm

thanks. terharu gila.

the fact about today is, VERY HORRIBLE!

grr! widya, mia tak tahu apa masalah widya. but, kenapa widya buat mia macam ni oh? mia bukan cari pasal dengan widya. pun. takkan tiap-tiap tahun kita nak kena bergaduh?

malas nak cerita apa dia buad. cause it is very annoying. boleh buad aku saked hati jeh kalau ingad balik.

Labels: anger, feelings, friends

1/06/2012 06:50:00 pm

Sunday, 1 January 2012

last night.

my last night in 2011. :)

Labels: day, feelings, lonely and alone, month, year

1/01/2012 12:00:00 am

Saturday, 31 December 2011

does it?

tahu tak? bahang hari persekolahan sudah mula terasa.
aku pun, dah iron baju kurung, kain baju kurung and tudung semua ah.
konon, gaya bersemangat nak bersekolah balik.

but believe me, aku tak pernah rasa nak balik ke sekolah even aku rindukan gila kawan-kawan aku.
hanis, saye harap kite same kelas tahun depan. saye betul-betul miss awok, tahu!

and, dear responsible as a prefect.
hopefully I can carry all those responsibility during my day as a prefect in DSA.

2A, let me be the first. and please, let me happy again and again.
please don't repeat all those bitter incident more.
I love you if you love me too!

until we meet again in other post,
BellaLullaby2.
happiness is a habit-cultivate it.

Labels: anger, feelings, nonsense and ridiculous

12/31/2011 12:26:00 am

Friday, 30 December 2011

signature. again and again.

I made a decision about my signature. I will not using the second one cause it's look like very bold and heavy. and and and, I will not use my signature if I'm not in diligent mood. Trust me, it is very difficult to see that signature again.

I am very damn boring right now.
I want to play game for treating this boringness.

until we meet again in new post,

Labels: blog, feelings, nonsense and ridiculous

12/30/2011 11:04:00 am

Thursday, 29 December 2011

aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku upload jugak gambar ni.
sedangkan lighting dia, tak berapa cantik.
and, gambar dia nampak blur.

actually, aku suka gambar yang lighting gempak.
and,
tak nak blur. aku suka something yang light and aggressive.

macam gambar starbucks yang time aku tengah starving tu.
that is damn cool!

tapi, aku juga cepat jatuh hati bila si model memakai baju yang 'cun gila ah'.
walaupun yang atas tu tak berapa cun, but as for me, cute oh gown yang dia pakai tu.

Labels: feelings, food, nonsense and ridiculous

12/29/2011 11:56:00 am

scent of a woman.

guys, how I wish I got something so I could share it with you.
by the way,
SCENT OF A WOMAN last night are very damn romantic! hish, I am so jealous oh.